wooo.. what am i suppose to say nehs? i am tokkingg to isaacc and cheryyl now.. tmr, i gg to orchardd yeahhs withh themm.. habbenn confirmm whoo gg lar.. hahas.. lalas.. well.. tt dayy went to amkk horr. after onlinee we go eat mar. den joanne eat so slowly.. hahas.. denn i keep onn sayyingg herr.. dia0s! denn i sohh attitudee coshh i habben sleep mar.. denn all of the suddenn someeonee playedd an OLD CHINESE SONG WTF! so nan tingg denn joanne andd seann laughh coshh theyy see my facee so dulanx! dia0s.. i so dulans theyy so happie.. crazy couple~ hmmm, denn joanne sayy whatt her mom always listenn to thiss kindaa songg denn she xi guan ler.. denn seann sayy he oso.. damm lar! so nan tingg songg~ hmmm.. denn i eat nasi lamak coshh so sianns dunno what to eat.. urghhh~ hmmm.. denn eat finishh ler.. we go to kbox derr check upp the price denn go backk to moss slack at der. joanne say what she wanna do homework.. bluff lar.. do half way.. hahas.. denn we buy corn soup.. denn joanne put her arm on my legg.. denn i pushh.. bu xiao xing her handd makee till thee corn soup drop onn da table.. denn makee till joanne's bookk.. denn seann cleann upp.. hhaas.. =x nortt my fault.. accidentally de mar.. hahas.. denn seann nag nag nag.. noisyy lar.. evenn joanne oso neberr sayy anythingg~ make till joanne's phonee oso.. lols! x) hmm.. denn afterr tt we go homee.. cosh i verii tiredd mar.. ywanss... denn slpp ler.. lols..!!
today stayed at home, read the teenage book. got one post on da dear kelly, the title is "I CANT FORGET MY EX" i readd it denn i readd the reply oso.. i tot about it, nort realliew sure.. my tot was, yeahh he has moved on. i oso try to move on. so hardd. hmm.. i am clinging to the ghost of my past x( how how? denn todayy joanne toldd mie seann saw hiim withh two girls.. yeahh yeahh.. bet one of themm ishh his girll.. but neberr mindd.. anythingg.... it did effect my mood a little because be4 joanne call mie i was thinkking abtt hiim.. ya.. so hmm.. whateva..

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

hey! i am at amk now with joanne and seann x) hmmm.. didnt sleep denn come out ler. hahas.. ywaanss.. donn feel likke sleepingg mar.. \= hmms.. just now at arcade play withh seann at first i keep on losingg denn joanne helpp miee.. afterr tt she taught mie how to playy.. denn i keep on winning sean ler.. evenn joanne oso i winn. hahas.. YESH! RACHEL EUU CANN DO IT! =) hahas. ii am encouagingg myysleff.. cannort mehh? hahs.. no wrongss whatt! lols..!! sohh happie i cann wiin joanne.. but all thankks to herr i cann winn.. hahas.. xie xie! =) euu let mie wiin euu ler~ lols!! hmmm.. well.. yeahh last nighht cannt sleep.. just keep onn watchingg tvv denn onlinne.. denn now onlinee at amkk.. boringgs.. haiss~ so boringg.. so boringg lifee.. nothingg to doo~ urghhhh!!! =x hmm.. well i realliew miss hiim lots!! i wonder how ishh he now? heys! i realliew donwann to loose a frewnn just becos of somethingg.. i neberr wanna let euu off.. but do euu? euu realliew cann bear just to let go the two yearss frewnshipp? let mie tell euu.. i cannt.. cann euu? answer miee!! urghhhh!! welll alrightss i am crazyyy~ =)))

IT'S 5.25 AND I CANT SLEEP!! HELL!! BORINGG BOREDOM!! I THINK I AM SUFFERINGG FROM SOME KIND OF ILLNESS! LUCKILY MY SISTA ISHH NORRT HOOME IF NORTT I WILL JUSST DIE OFF BOREDNESS!! AGREE? HAHAS! I AM LAME!!

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

hi =) well uhms these few days did nthh at all. boringgs. hais. ytdd nightt i criedd againn. hais. dunno whyy must i cry againn. hais. wo hao xiang ta~ wei she men? =s hao la. just now chatt withh jensenn on da phonee. denn he cannot turn up for my bday celebratioonn. wtf! dunno how sia. hahas. =x hmmm. cant wait for my bdayy. dunno wot to do sia. lols! habben decide. anyways ricky's bday comingg oso. hahas. hmm.. lalas. nthh to write lehhs. so bored.. x( buais. go catch the 9 pm show le.. =)

Sunday, March 26, 2006

heys people out there today ish sunday fucking boring day
dunno what the fuck to do also.hahas.
just now i just only go my house downstairs buy food
denn hor i short of 10cents to i go home take
sians 1/2 still habb to walkk backk all the wayy to the hawker center
well luckily got changzhii to peii miee talkk on da phonee
now i am so boredd,dunno what the hell to do so i just post an entry
someone toldd mie nort to write sad things anymore
but how to don't write ar's.
sad means sad mahs understanndd?hahas
i changgedd my skinn nicer?please leave a comment thanks thanks
all i know is that today i am fuckingg boringgs.fucking miss hiim.
well neberr mindd it is time to forget about the past andd thinkk about my future
wahaha!!what am i saying?
dunno la
justt fuckingg b0redd.that ishh all i know

Saturday, March 25, 2006

today ishh sat, boringg dayy. dunno what the hell to do. hais. whenn will i get to contact hiim againn? i habb been thinkking about hiim since our story endedd. i am still clueless of whyy our story endedd. how i wishh it it wouldd be foreva.. if euu ever readd my post.. i realliew wanna tell euu i realliew miss euu alort. my love forr euu habb neberr fadedd thouu euu hurt miee i cantt hatee euu. i triedd to hardd but i am jusst useless. tell miee what to d0? haiis. i always at home will thiink abt the past h0w muchh euu caredd f0r miee h0w muchh lovee euu showedd onn miee. where euu are? whenn cann we ever meet againn.. to hiim out der.. i wishh euu are doingg well.. andd hopee euu takkirre of urselff. coshh the last wordd euu toldd miee ishh to takkirre.. i hopee euu takkirre too.. euu will be outt soonn.. hopee euu will turnn overr a new leaf. alrights? takkirre yeahh.. euu are alwayss importantt to miee.. i will miss euu alorrt. i will always rememberr tt i ever once knew euu.. whatt we shared for the two yearss i will alwayss rememberr.. but i wonn go andd contactt euu no worriess. unless euu ever contactt miee.. but euu habb to takkirre yeahh.. i wonn blamee euu anymoree.. because i habb no rights to blame euu.. all i hopee ishh euu are happie =)

- euu are missed by rachel -

Friday, March 24, 2006

heys peeps x)

last night habb losta dreams

first dream ishh aboutt ghost woo

cant remember about this dream







secondd dream ishh about him x)

i dreamm tt he msgg mie

all of the sudden

tellingg mie about his grandma

denn i askked him

i tot euu say euu wonn contact mie

denn he replied yeahh but just

wanna tell euu about my grandma

denn ii didnt reply

denn he sendd mie another msg

sayingg tt he miss mie

gosh!!but i woke up

just to findd out it is just a dream

sadd..<br>








next ishh aboutt hmm school frewns!

i missed themm lotss

denn i woke up lers

hahas


lotsa dreams last nighht.

how i wishh the secondd dream was true

i miss hiim alort

godd cann euu tell mie whatt to do

i miss hiim

i lovee hiim

where are euu? hais

Thursday, March 23, 2006

now at amkk.. so boredd.. anyway stay at home also boredd.. todayy wokee up at 930.. denn cannt sleep ler.. denn 3pluss denn go outt.. boringg siaa.. actualliee wan morningg go outt de.. butt horr joanne mom habeen come backk so i wait lorr.. so boredd andd tiredd. sibeii sianss lorr.. hahas.. denn afterr tt go amkk go eat mos.. joanne treatt miee 5 buckss.. denn go arcade play withh joanne the fightingg dee.. so idiott i lost =(( hahas.. denn at arcade saw a guy who llook likee hiim.. i kanna shockk.. hahas.. but i noe nort hiim cosh he ishh still a little botok! hahas.. =xx hmms.. denn come onlinne now.. lalas.. got one guy keep on lookin at wot i typingg.. hahas.. dia0xx!! alrightss. go liaoss.. still missingg hiimm..

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

today stayed at home. so boringgs. hais. dunno if joanne ishh comingg norts.. haiss.. i took out the stuffs tt he sentt miee. his photos his letters. and mailed it backk to hiim. hais. i bu se de. but i donn habb a choicee. i habb to gif upp on hiim.. because no matter how muchh i lovee hiim. his lovee forr miee won comee backk anymoree. haiss. i verii fuckked up withh my familyy.. i feel like jumpingg downn lorr.. haiss.. dunno la.. life ishh sohh fucked upp!! boringg lifee!!!! stupidd lifee!!! no love!! i got nothingg in returnn whenn i givve outt so muchh lovee to hiim. he treatedd miee as a fooll!! haiss......

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

fuck today got waken upp byy my mom calls. den she make so much noise. den i so fucked upp withh my dad. fuckinggg idiott.. askk hiim go downn onli oso cannt.. soo i habb to go lar.. i just wake upp lorr.. fuck lar!! sohh dulaann withh my familyy.. my sista oso.. lie sohh muchh.. that time saw my mp3 at her room.. den i forgot to takee denn few dayss ltrr ask her where ishh my mp3 shhe sayy shee neberr takee!!denn afterr that i askk my mom to askk her. coshh cant be nort she take nort she den who? GHOST ar.. urghhh! denn whenn my mom ask her she sayy she putt backk at my room the messy tablee.. so i cleann up lar.. oso cantt findd.. LIAR!in the endd denn say whatt she LEND her frewnn to check the mp3 spoilt ler mar.. FUCK HER LA!TAKE MY THINGS WITHOUT MY PERMISSION!!my m0m leh? always side my sis... she onli nagg at mie neber nagg at my sis. my sis do housework denn my mom will praise her say i lazyy lar.. denn whenn i do housework leh? she oso neber say anythingg!!! knn!!! i use the hus phone so little she say i use until so longgg!! is my FUCKING SISTA use de lor!! nort miee lorrr!!! i use i askk people to call one lorrr.. call in needd moneyy mehh?? denn my sis use sohh muchh she oso neber nagg herr.. i use sohh muchh she nagg miee denn always say mie!! FUCK! THIS IS MY FUCKING HOUSE WITH SO MUCH FUCKING PROBLEMS!! ALL AGAINST MIE!!! KNNNN!!! so dulannnnn!! i feel lik GIVING UP!!urghhhh!!!

ytd nite suddenly thinkk of hiim againn.. whenn we were togetherr he was so sweet to miee.. i miss those dayss.. hais... whenn cann i ever be withh hiim againn? i realliew miss hiim alortt.... still lovingg himm~

Monday, March 20, 2006

my life is empty without euu why did euu habb to hurtt miee sohh muchh. i miss euu sohh muchh. did i ever lett euu down? cann euu tell mie? i wanna know whyy? whyy euu neber answerr? but jusst sayy that we shldd nortt contact anymore? did i sayy anythingg wrongg? i feel like dyingg my heart hurts sohh muchh.. till noww it is still bleedingg because of euu i am afraid of anyone. i try my best to forget abt euu but i cant. i criedd sohh badly because i miss euu. ii just hopee i habb neber lovee euu sohh muchh. all this while i just wantedd to know whyy? but euu just wouldd nortt givee miee a answerr. i still habb ya letters and ya photos. i dunno whatt shldd i do withh it. hais. godd savee miee. i am feeling sohh hurtt. -i miss him- =(

Sunday, March 19, 2006

today woke up at 2plus. hehe.. sleep sohh longg coshh verii tiredd.. ytdd tryy to sleepp.. sohh hardd to sleepp siaa.. my toee soohh painn.. hahas. i deleted hiim iin frewnnsterr lerhh.. =)) shlddd be moree happiee bahh.. think sohh.. haiss.. denn todayy playy badmintonn againn withh joanne.. yeahh my toe is beta.. with bandage on it.. my mom sayy wann bringg miee see doctor.. scare siaa.. laterr injectionn siaa.. i scaree of itt.. ahhass.. =)) alrighhts now tokingg to changzhii.. haha. he is sohh cutee.. =)) hmm.. alrightss.. donn wann type ler.. my FUCKING sista comingg homee ler... buaiss =))

Saturday, March 18, 2006

today woke up at 12pm.. ywanss.. i slept at 6am. cant slp keep thinking of hiim. hais. don understandd? i realliew don.. there is many thingss i wanna tell hiim. i wan get hiim out of my headd. but cann i? i dunno. it is so hard. he left the pain in my heart.. cann euu tell mie why euu did thiss to mie? thinking of deletingg hiim in my frwenster. shld ii? i can bear to. hais. i dunno what shld i do. cann anyonee tell miie? he deleted the testimonial i wrote for hiim last time.. i am realliew verii sadd. heart painn =(

alrights today went to play badmitonn.. with joanne alica and seann.. damm.. went all the way to jurong east sia.. denn hor i fall down twice. shit! denn my toe bleed.. i got a pic of my toe.. it is disgustingg.. damm painful lor. but i don care i just carry on playingg.. denn play play play later RAIN!! what the hell!! denn we seat down under the blkk.. i toldd joanne abt what rickyy and isaac wrote in their blogg. denn we all were laughhingg denn joanne so pai sei siaa.. hahas.. denn after tt ard 615 we walkk backk to jurongg entertainment center. hab long john's der.. denn went to see those peoplee playingg at the fun fairr.. hahas. funnie sia.. denn went to trainn homee.. denn walkk with my injured toe.. damm painn.

hey people =)) today woke up at 1.15 pm ywanss so tiredd. i slept at 8am in da morningg lorss.. coshh i cantt sleep keep thinkingg of himm. sohh i wokee upp saww hiis msgg.. he saidd 'haix since that's the case whyy nortt we dont contact eachh other anymoree,take it as we NEBER noe eachh otherr be4?' two years lerhh we noee eachh otherr. denn cann euu expectt hee toldd miee that? hais. i dunno what to sayy andd do.. i jus replied 'alrights everything ishh euu decide de. did euu let miee decide nahh euu didnt did euu ever listenn to mie nahh euu didnt' denn no replyy.. haiss..
alrightss denn afterr tt i wentt to escape withh cheryl joanne isaac jensen and rickyy.. ohhh.. we habb funn derr.. hahas.. but lots of nice rides CLOSE!wth!=S denn afterr tt wentt to play blowingg.. er.. i got the LOWEST score!! damm!! so pai sei =x hahas..denn go playy arcade.i played the fighting one withh joanne and i WON!!!! =)) poor joanne.. took some picturess.. hahas.. lalas.. den take buss homee.. denn i walkk homee.. and yupss i am backk noww.. so tiredd ywanss.. =O


click on the picture to view the bowling scores =))

Friday, March 17, 2006

todaee i saww hiss frewnsterr profile,guess what?he ishh attachedd.neberr mindd.but he liedd to miee.i feel so hurtxx..whyy mustt he hurtxx mie?am i for him to hurt?he toldd miee he donn wann to go intoo a relationshipp noww..whyy must he lie to mie?i am angry yet hurts.i askk him manii timess why?why?no answerr.haiss.am i suppose to keep quiet?hidee myselff in da darrkk?i realliew lovee hiim alortt.whyy musst he treatt miee thiss way?amm i stupidd to trustt himm soo muchh?i thinkk of him,i cryy.i miss hiim.my life ishh emptyy withoutt hiim.whenn he madee promisess doess he realliew meann it?he toldd miee he cannt contactt miee sohh he feel useless,noww he ishh stilll insidee yett he ishh withh someonee else noow?lyingg to miee ishh funn for hiim?i donchh understanndd.i dunno whyy?why?godd cann euu tell miee?i wantedd sohh muchh to be backk withh hiim.but he hurtx mie.whenn will he understandd mie?lie lie lie~hais

wahh.. i am so new.. i dunno anythingg =)) hahas.. luckily got isaac teachh miee.. thankss.. =))

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